Uttamashloka: I found a big church on Avenue Road, which is a very good location in Toronto. It was a huge, wonderful building, perfect for us. The Christian group that had used it was moving to a new place, and it was for sale for a half a million. This was the best place we had found after years of looking. I went to Prabhupada and I told him about the building, "Prabhupada, we found a huge amazing building. It was a church and has forty-foot-high ceiling. There's space for brahmachari quarters." I described everything to him. He said, "It sounds great. How much do they want?" I said "They want $500,000." We had never paid that much for a building. He said, "That's a lot of money. What's the use of buying anxiety? All you'll be thinking about is collecting money. We don't need to purchase anxiety. That's not our business. Our business is to remember Krishna. That's all. It's a good location?" I said, "Oh, yes Prabhupada." He said, "In good condition?" I said, "Oh, beautiful.

Prabhupada, it's on a main road." He said, "Oh, but what's the use of purchasing anxiety. We don't need that. We don't want to purchase anxiety." I said, "Yeah, okay." He said, "Big temple room? I said, "Yes, Prabhupada, nice temple room, wonderful. Maybe you can come to Toronto and see it." He said, "Maybe we'll come." I said "Okay." About three weeks later he came to Toronto. We picked him up at the airport, and as we drove to the temple he said, "Can we see the building?" I said, "Sure." We took him on a tour and there was one Christian still there. I told Prabhupada, "Here's the temple room, and here's the prasadam room, and we'll do this here and that there …" We were walking by a table where some Christian books had been left behind, and one title was, "What Does God Look Like?" Prabhupada picked it up and said, "Ask him if we can buy this." I said, "Can we buy this book?" He said, "You can have it.” I said, "Okay." We got in the car and Prabhupada said, "read something to me, read the book." I started reading the book, and it was going nowhere. He said, "They don't know what God looks like, it's just a bluff."

About 10:00 that night I got a phone call, "Prabhupada wants to see you. Come over to the apartment right away." I went over to the apartment and Prabhupada said, “Do you have all the plans, the blueprints of how you want to lay out the temple?" I said, "Yes, Prabhupada, I have everything." He said, "I think it would be an ideal temple." I said, "Yes, Prabhupada, it would be wonderful." He said, "How much do they want?" I said, "Five hundred thousand."

He said, "Well, why don't we go there and ask if they'll take three hundred thousand dollars. How much do you have?" I said, "We have about forty thousand." He said, "Can you get another sixty?"

I said, "We can try." He said, "Brahmananda, how much do we have in the BBT?" He said, "We have two hundred and something."

Prabhupada said, "Give them two hundred thousand." Brahmananda said, "Prabhupada, we've never given that much to anybody."

Prabhupada said, "That's all right, give it to them and see if they'll take three hundred thousand cash, and tell them that we'll worship Lord Jesus next to Lord Krishna on the altar." In other words, we'd preserve the Christian element. Prabhupada said, "Do you think they'll do that?" I said, "We can try." He said, "Can you handle the payments on three hundred thousand?" I said, "Prabhupada that's a lot of money. We don't want to purchase anxiety." Prabhupada slammed his fist on the table and said, "No, there must be anxiety! Otherwise we'll just be sitting around, eating prasadam and getting fat. There must be anxiety!" (Laughs). I thought, "Okay," He completely reversed what he had said before, "Well, we don't want to purchase anxiety," to, "There must be anxiety!" Everybody was shocked.